Field Ledger Archive

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December 2020
With DC bars and restaurants and museums and libraries closing again, a quick note: your yoga teachers have been out of work for 9 months.

DC Unemployment is $137/month. Not to put too fine a point on it: my insurance went up to $555 a month.

Do the math.
November 2020
Help a local urban farm get solar power. Donate here.

Why?

In the last 15 years, farm founder Gail Taylor has on-boarded me as a volunteer twice— the first was at a farm in Maryland, the second at my neighborhood hot yoga studio. Her patience and persistence and steady hand allowed others the chance to help— and boy I needed THAT help. Her guiding hand is one I trust and believe in. Help a helper.
September 2020
After being asked to denounce white supremacy, Donald J. Trump spoke directly to a neo-fascist white nationalist domestic terrorist organization and told them to “stand by.”

Are we as a nation so numb that we are not up in arms, figuratively or literally? I’m shocked that this was on the national debate stage; and shocked that this isn’t the headline in every major new outlet world wide.

The sitting president also said that he did not believe that the election could be legitimate this cycle, and that he would not peacefully transfer power, nor would he encourage peace during that time.

Instead, he encouraged his white nationalist followers to stand by.

Can anyone defend *not* voting him out?
August 2020
I have 4 spots left for a 4 week course that will give you the tools to practice yoga on your own and in a group. It has an easy to follow structure that goes at your own pace, with a weekly live check-in for movement instruction and Q&A. First come, first serve. $60. Sliding scale available. PM me.
Because ive watched people make ad hominem attacks on my behalf in order to further their racist agenda, I’d like to share other logical fallacies that show up when arguing with ignorant or agenda’d populations.

The one occurring here, when drawing comparisons to George Flloyd, is an ad hominem attack— that’s when we attack the character of an individual instead of the subject matter at hand. When folks do that with George flloyd, that’s often a proxy for the black community. This is racist tell, friends. Of course, racism happens, and if you’re comitted to being anti racist, this won’t hurt your feelings. If you aren’t committed to being anti racist, then this might hurt your feelings.

When the comparison between this poor little boy and the comparison is to talking points associated with anti racist discussions, meaning someone else (“race” is a someone else, so that would be ad hominem on all black folk), it’s a classic red herring— meaning it’s meant to distract you from the true culprit.

So, this little boy is being used as either a proxy for all whites assaulted or killed by black folks (something i take seriously, based on my history) using a dead black man with no correlation, or a total red herring, because these situations don’t have anything in common except media propagation.

I would ask what and why regarding the logic— and then what and why regarding the comparison.

For those that are “why aren’t we talking about this dead little boy? We’re talking about this dead black man” I would encourage deeper reflection about why you think that comparison is apt.

For those that are like “this poor little boy was killed by a black man” I would ask what you want from this conversation and why.
July 2020
Funny enough, after all these years, i couldn’t put a picture together that could share what Maggie has taught be in a “before-after.”

@[34207430:2048:Maggie Lively], you have always inspired in me the tenacity to be my best self, and to this day you continue to push me, counsel me, and love me.

It is an honor to be your friend.
June 2020
So much "can't erase history" stuff, and I am gonna take it on face value that y'all don't really understand ( a VERY charitable read rn).

Lemmie break this down for ya:

Say you came over and put a statue up in my front yard-- one that was in the image of the men who have verbally and physically assaulted me over the years. How do you think it would make me feel?

Now, lets make it spicy: that statue, lets say it was built to highlighting the virtuousness of the men who harassed, hospitalized, and hurt me?

Do you think I'd wanna come home? Do you think I'd wanna be anywhere near it?

Would you like to see the face of your tormenters every day comin' and goin? "History is history" really feels like "suffer, bitch."
63% of trump voters cant bring themselves to feel favorably about the sentiment “black lives matter. ” 73% of trump voters oppose demonstrations/rallies. This is why we said what we said and and we say what we say. Black lives matter.
I have been on a learning journey with friends on the topic of police defunding— or perhaps it could be called “resource re-allocation”— anywho, i liked these infographics!
"I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Counciler or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate, who is more devoted to "order" than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice; who constantly says: "I agree with you in the goal you seek, but I cannot agree with your methods of direct action"; who paternalistically believes he can set the timetable for another man's freedom; who lives by a mythical concept of time and who constantly advises the Negro to wait for a "more convenient season." Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection."

Martin Luther King, Jr.

Birmingham city jail
Today’s a great day to educate yourself a little— the thread is full of helpful links for further edifying yourself.
Hi team! It's your friendly neighborhood yoga coach! Balance gym is at it again— matching donations and elevating queer POC’s voices.

One of the seminal yoga texts, the Bhagavad Gita, has the story of a Arjuna, a young Archer, going to war to fight injustices (against his cousins, no less). He grapples with the concepts of pacifism, patience, and change-- aren't Yogi's suppose to be peaceful??

“Inaction is action,” Krishna tells him. He shows up as his chariot driver, guiding him to find a right action In his confusion and concern. Krishna doesn’t want anyone to get hurt! Especially not his cousins... but as Krishna reminds him, sometimes it is a greater injustice to nor Fight for peace.

If you are a practitioner looking for a way to help stop injustice, and your money goes further than your arrows, please consider doing the yogic thing and donating.

Balance gym will match your donations!
My partner/family was tear gassed today in front of St John’s Episcopal Church during a peaceful protest. This was on our presidents order. It’s not some kind of fake news.

It was a peaceful protest.

How is it conscionable to gas Americans for peacefully protesting during a pandemic?
May 2020
I drew a line in the sand a few years ago to no longer hold close to my heart those who could not hold my community in their own. What community?

"Other." The marginalized. My community lives in a second America.

If you want to make America great, it means dismantling systems of oppression. That starts at home, with you.

Dear White folks, Straight folk,Christians.

Give this a read, tell me what you think.

https://sojo.net/articles/our-white-friends-desiring-be-allies
What does it mean to go to a place like Ecuador in order to create and participate in economy? And how does one do that in a respectable, regenerative, respectful way?

Ask Kristen.

She and her partner Juan are growing cacao and heirloom cacao in a regenerative food forest with zero waste.

The optics in this post hit close to home.

I try not to dress up in a costume for the purposes of selling you the product of yoga. I can’t actually sell yoga yoga— and sell you my time.

My time as a practitioner, a seeker, a student, and a finder. And as a yoga facilitator/teacher/guide, it’s why you don’t see me in my dhoti very often... And why i tend to only wear my mala when I meditate.

There are so many ways to signal your desire to be seen as aspirational— biceps and bindis and baba harem pants. Andean throws. The thing is, when you have something valuable to share, you want to share it.

When you have devoted your life to something, you hope that you can make enough money to keep devoting your life to it. And, you might even try to sell the image of the thing using appropriators prints.

It’s a tricky thing... this authenticity piece. I love that Kristen and Juan encourages folks to make of all of it what you will.

In the mean time... should I teach you to handstand, shirtless?
Wear your fucking masks -- especially if you’re biking or running. You’re making the rest of us who mindfully go outside look like selfish pricks — and youre endangering others, too.
April 2020
Are you feeling stressed? Hungry for no reason? Irritable?

How about overly sleepy? Lethargic? A feeling of general malaise?

You might need to relax your system-- and I'm not talking in a shmaltzy bubble-bath-y way (please note: I love a bubble bath).

If you're nervous system is all high-strung right now, it might be so high that you can't even tell except for some of the above... you're just kind of in a bad mood. Sound familiar?

If you've had trouble getting back to a feeling of being centered, I recommend putting a tool in your toolkit that ca help.

Here's a strong technique that works.
Ready for another 30 minute live stream for undoing all that pesky work-from-home-ing in the upper back and shoulders? See ya tomorrow at 730am in the Balance Gym Facebook page!
March 2020
I’ve got a 30 minute Facebook Live yoga class focusing on shoulders! I’ll be coming to you from the mid city den zen courtesy of Balance Gym tomorrow at 7:30am!

Wanna be prepared? Grab an old belt (or yoga strap), and have a block (or a: couple of books, a lazy pet, a coffee can).
Mister Gates done been told us, y’all.

His footnote on how preparedness also helps create a more “just” society while also keeping the economy ~3 trillion dollars stronger maybe is more than a footnote.

I have made a pivot towards online offerings— but the question becomes more existential. As someone who functions as a manual therapist *and* a facilitator/ of an indigenous practice that changes the mind and body radically... is my vocation dispensable? My life’s work?

Surely not— but we do need protecting.

And we done been known.
To all my friends and colleagues out there— stay strong. We will weather the storm. To those feeling a fiscal pinch and perservering, I see you. To those doing heavy lifting with emotional labor—thank you. The struggle is real, but we are resilient.
Sending y’all good vibes and virtual high-fives. Nows a great time to flex on that discipline and compassion front. Holla.
I’m starting a free 30-day get started program for anyone interested in building a sustainable yoga practice from the ground up. It starts at just 10-minutes a day and builds.

Interested? It’s free and online and supported via the group.

Hit me up, and I’ll invite you to our little group.
February 2020
January 2020
Here is an explanation or intersectional analysis as it relates to the Kobe story. I found it useful.

I don’t know anything about current athletes who aren’t gay and shirtless, so I only know of Kobe by how much he meant to a lot of people. When I saw he died, I said “oh wow.”

Later, I said, “didn’t he get accused of rape or something?”

My news feed is filled to the brim with stories of sexual assault— stories of black men, Indian men, and white men— and they are all intense and complicated and people hold these men up high on pedastels while others say to tear them down and distance themselves. I’ve taken down the smiling visage of one such Indian man.

But guys, can’t we think more deeply?
117 homeless Washingtonians have died in the last year. This is up more than 100% compared to the previous last year.

2 million dollars was spent on an art installation designed to keep homeless people out of an underpass— not for safety, but because of community aesthetics.

The building the crew club is in on 14th street sold for 2 million.

I’m all for public art commissions— but c’mon. We can hang shitty LED lights, but not help our most vulnerable at the very least stay safe from the elements?

How much housing can 2 million buy?