Thursday
March 28, 2019
Spring · 2 entries
I used to be 300+ pounds. I was an obese teenager.
A well-timed car wreck that ended with me having my jaw wired shut for a few months helped me lose the first 40. It killed my football career, but gave birth to the second of many of my lives.
Diet, exercise, ephedra, and yoga got me out of the next 60 in a few years. I’ve always had twenty come and go.
At 35 (soon to be 36!) I’m purposefully gaining 20 pounds. Had you told me at 16 that in twenty years I might wanna put on twenty pounds... i would probably keel over from laughter (and then find someway to internalize the idea that you were calling me fat because i was so project-y).
I trust and believe in a body’s resilience. I trust and believe in human resilience. I believe in our capacity to affect change.
To feel my(growing!) waist across my own thigh and not have a wellspring of negativity feels not just like freedom but like an act of rebelliousness towards a culture that wouldn’t have me as I am.
One thing we know for sure about this existence: the outside is always changing.
Entering into dialogue with different layers of the self whilst concurrently using whatever tools are at your disposal is empowering not just to the body but to the whole mind body organism.
One of the greatest things about having a body is that it will change. Good thing that's guaranteed.
A well-timed car wreck that ended with me having my jaw wired shut for a few months helped me lose the first 40. It killed my football career, but gave birth to the second of many of my lives.
Diet, exercise, ephedra, and yoga got me out of the next 60 in a few years. I’ve always had twenty come and go.
At 35 (soon to be 36!) I’m purposefully gaining 20 pounds. Had you told me at 16 that in twenty years I might wanna put on twenty pounds... i would probably keel over from laughter (and then find someway to internalize the idea that you were calling me fat because i was so project-y).
I trust and believe in a body’s resilience. I trust and believe in human resilience. I believe in our capacity to affect change.
To feel my(growing!) waist across my own thigh and not have a wellspring of negativity feels not just like freedom but like an act of rebelliousness towards a culture that wouldn’t have me as I am.
One thing we know for sure about this existence: the outside is always changing.
Entering into dialogue with different layers of the self whilst concurrently using whatever tools are at your disposal is empowering not just to the body but to the whole mind body organism.
One of the greatest things about having a body is that it will change. Good thing that's guaranteed.
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